Monday, July 02, 2007 @ 12:34 AM
totally haphazard?
this past week has been a seesaw of emotions. just like how millicent put it, i don't dare to put my finger on it for fear that my finger will be brutally sliced. AND after 999 fingers have touched it, its concentration of evil will rise to an all time high and explode into a roller coaster of emotions. wahaha. are u okie sharon? yes.
some of it:
-ichi-
im not a crowd pleaser. once my threshold is up, that's it. i'm not a circus clown juggling many fruits at one time. Some see my effort but it's not enough for them. When i extend my arms of comfort, i get negative reinforcement remarks about myself and i have to run back to my heavenly Father for his everlasting comfort. Yeah if im really a circus clown juggling many fruits, you will be sure i will be throwing them at u on my bad days.
unless u r a kid, i don't like to talk a person who is like a clam tightly shut. I dislike walking aimlessly and when i said i want to go home u better take my words seriously!
-ni-
a man wants to know how deep the water is, he rolled up his pants and sat on the edge of the well and put his legs in. he could only touch the surface of the water with his toes. however, this attempt doesn't give a gauge on the depth of the water so he adjusted his position and move forward. His foot is now in the water but it still does not give a clear gauge.
haven't heard of the saying still water runs deep? try sticking your leg further and u will drown!
-san-
familiar stranger. the reason we kept exchanging smiles to each other is bcos we have nothing to talk abt. tt's truly quite sad for a friendship
-yo-
it seems somewhat ridiculous to me how time and time again i pluck myself out of a comfortable and familiar setting and plunge myself into a whole new different territory. take a look at cdac.. i think i'm prob academically the poorest among the group of jc teachers, uni grads and jc students. not indulging in self pity but being really realistic. i dun have any chum to stick around with besides the kids. this time round, i have decided to shift my comfortable butt out of Young adults (haha though my attendance isnt tt regular to begin with) and join Kids EE.
Kids EE is a humbling experience. I have to forgo my pride and tear down the walls i have built just to mingle with the kids. I believe this is possible with the youth just that we have insufficient efforts from both side. today charlene came up to me and asked
C : Why are u here? Why are u not with Kaleo?
S : tt's bcos i want to learn how to share Christ to children!
C : But u r the odd one here! It's all children here
Celicilia : no what there are mothers!
C : Different! They are OLD!
-ahhahahahaah-
kids say the most blatant thing to u without the intention of hurting u. I was told im
lousy cos i kept forgetting my memory verses. maybe they should test me on my finance theory i think i can blabber some impressive stuff. ANYWAY if it's someone of my age telling me im lousy i would have GLARED or ROLLED my eyes. Instead i said no laaa that's becos u r very good and im slightly not as good as u.
trust me to say such stuff... SHARONNN SHARONNN are u okie???
