Sunday, July 02, 2006 @ 5:58 PM
my 400th entry
randomly looking back at my old entries, i realised how much i've changed.
the zeal & zest for You has rollover into doubts & denial.
definitely the sacarsm essence still exists.
i prob cry alot more & bitch less?
like a sickly patient vulnerable to the bacteria in the air, every little thing upsets me. i need an ICU!
if the great depression continues.. i prob have to change my blog add to bruisesandbitter.blogspot.com. maybe u will find that somewhere hor?
i struggle with living up to a christian expectation i have of myself and i think im going to struggle with it till i grey and wear dentures :) when i was in bangkok, i thought tt given my super morbid nature.. i have a high chance to become a nun. to drop the san qian fan nao si and all the worldly desires and meditate n attain nirvana? Thank God no, i'll never embrace nunhood (maybe spinster). i really want to enjoy the gift of being a youth while time is still on my side.
i know that voice is You.
John 10:3 To him the doorkeeper opens, and the sheep hear his voice; and he calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. 4 And when he brings out his own sheep, he goes before them; and the sheep follow him, for they know his voice.
You speak in a small still voice.
I know You will find me even if i cant find You.
