im hurting all over again.

i dont like the way i feel.

i dont want to be melancholy.

i dont want to hide in the shadows and cry.

i want to be the gal who shines for Jesus

i want to brighten up and add warmth to people's life

im not a sponge tt absorbs all the time... what do u exactly want me to do? simply listen and do nothing? by reflex i cant do that.. i cant. why cant u simply open yr mouth and communicate with them? if u cant.. let me do it. you know i would. why is our family's culture like this? why do we bottle things up and not talk abt it? jus bcos we r chinese? is this the so called peace you want by keeping quiet. im pissed. im freaking pissed.

do u noe how long i have been upset over this "trivial neighbour invasion"?

i hurt so much tt i wanna close my eyes and die.

maybe u caught a glimpse of my glassy eyes.
maybe u never have a chance to see me cry.