Saturday, June 17, 2006 @ 10:04 AM
pessimistic person? yea can't help the way my mentality works.
i do take delight in the little things in life, not just temporal euphoria that gushes away when your crowd of friends recedes but joyful moments that i can't quite pinpoint?
sometimes i program myself to have low or zero expectation so that anything else that comes along is a bonus. i pre-empt myself with a safety net bcos i know i will sink into worlds of monotone if things doesnt work out the way i desire it to be. my brains take the express train to the "future" and then plan backwards.
at the age of almost 21, where most youths worship in that "only live for the moment" attitude, i ponder abt years down the road; fortunate/unfortunate events that are likely to take place and wad i can do to bring the best out of it. true enough i have no control over external factors but at least i know i did my part and leave the rest to the one who is before and after me.
raptures don't jus happen bcos you want it to.
life is not always a beautiful drawing, sometimes vandalism takes over. grafitti? sure takes some time to realise it is a piece of art yea?
okiess smiless cos i dont intend it to be a morbiddd entryyy :)
