Monday, April 03, 2006 @ 9:30 PM
you know.. sometimes i wonder do i emit a "please do not share gossips with me, do not disturb me, please don't come near me" signs.
since poly ( eh i was pretty oblivious to my surroundings in pri n sec sch).. i tried hard to mingle with the new clique after changing project groups. i tried to be lenient, be less perfectionist, be more understanding and inject more fun into our projects.
no matter how hard i tried.. emptiness still lingers in the air.. still feel that im not as close as the 3 of them and im not updated with their news.
is it bcos im seen as unapproachable, too bochup, or tt i hop around n mingle with new friends i met in campus??
-clueless-
it was precisely becos i felt left out that led me to join other frens from other classes that made my presence appreciated. i like to feel im important and i yearn for the sense of idenity and belonging.
i guess this would probably stick with me for the rest of my life ( i dun mean friends hopping). such scenarios are still reenacting in one way or another but im not bogged down by it.
each time such negative thoughts pop up, i know His love is sufficient for me (okie i try to sink tt down in my head when im feeling super down).
i know there are the friends out there who love me as much as i love them :)
