Sunday, February 19, 2006 @ 3:09 PM
tea party with ruth on sat.
i feel more
ar with them and don seems slightly more friendly when pauline and edward is around.
feel kinda "priviledged" when i visit tea party. the extra they did really makes a huge difference.
eh i spent quite alot of money there also ..i was relating to ruth tt im at this point of my life that i question God alot. I wonder abt His existence, abt my walk with Him and entrusting my entire life to Him. I wont deny that i doubt Him every now and then and i still rem the good and how He saw me difficult times. But i still feel so far so far away from You.. as a far as the east is from the west? or that distance the heaven is from the earth. Constant deep longing that only You can fill?
i feel as if im back to where i have started. the origin of semi believing. you roughly know the truth yet u r confused? i'm somehow glad that the alpha program is going to start in march.
repairs have to be made at the root of the problem isn't it?
part II
no doubt i feel abit nuah & sian abt most things.. including visiting ruth's youth group. i had the mindset that it was going to be boring and i must admit tt i was quite courageous when i said yes to her immediately when she asked.
as usual God proved me wrong.. i like the msg haha although the worship was like errr abit long?
i believe it is more than a coincidence that they preached on parable of the talents.
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tt was where i stopped reading and didn't understand entirely)
