Monday, January 02, 2006 @ 2:19 AM
i wonder if reoccurring dreams that plague me since young till now have any significances in my life.
growing up with reoccuring dreams is extremely scary. i have been dreaming of them since kindergarden or pri sch.
i dunno if im trying to make 2 seperate matters seem related. im definitely not into Oh dreams tell your future but to a certain degree i think they reflect my innermost feelings that i hide from people.
since young till now.. i have been dreaming of something that is after me..after my life and i can't seem to shake it off. it wants me dead. people get killed in my dreams. alot of people died. know what? the setting always take place at home and i never get the chance to see the face of the "thing" that is after me.
2 nights ago. i dreamt of it again. well people might laugh at this. i dunno why out of the blue i dreamt of the headless knight in sleepy hollow. couldn't see the face again. not funny when you are always dreaming of something chasing after yr life.
nuff said. the connection? i think it is related to my family since the settings always take place in my house, i always die at home ( in my dreams) or i forced myself to wake up from the nightmare.
close pals would know from my sharing that i dislike what i see in my family.the only form of true love is only that from my mum's. i'm selfish.. i dislike to share things with my bro and i dunno why. i just think it is not worth it.
I dislike the Korean sort of dramas that take place all the time when my brother and his gf squabble and the furore. I dislike my mum being upset bcos of my brother and his gf's insensitivity.I dislike myself for being so emotional and analyzing too much.
Your love nest is causing me tremendous discomfort. I hate it. I HATE IT! Just because you are at the age of settling down so you think u can scrimp and save at the expense of dad's and mum's? well it's more of mum.
Both of u left your brains and nerves in hospital? Didn�t you guys take moral education? Is this how u r repaying dad and mum�s effort for bringing you up? I hate it that I have to think of the consequences of things and why im forced to make certain decisions bcos of your actions.
