Sunday, September 18, 2005 @ 11:57 PM
my hands are trembling and my legs feel so jelly right now.. right now as im typing.
i finally understood what it meant by fearing God.
i never felt so much fear before and i'm glad i finally felt it. Out of fear.. i have full respect for You. With the same fear, i have the same peace in You.
I feel like i'm one of those slow kids. Why didn't i fear You sooner? I've been a christian for almost 3 years yet i did not understand fully the meaning of fearing God till today. Maybe i did experience fear only in times of disaster to remind me that God is at work at all times. You have the power to heal the world and the power to destroy. But i do not need disasters to remind me to fear You Lord.. Perhaps it sounds foolish to non christians, but yes i want to live in fear of God everyday. My point of view, when you fear God, you learn to be obedient towards Him too.
When i was walking home, i was thinking of what lynn said. She said i have a pair of pretty feet and yeah life is fair and i dun have a pretty face. Don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to make her look ugly here.. We suan each other all the time and yeah they are just harmless sarcasms and we are super immuned to each other's rubbish. And so at the back of my mind, i was thinking since we are both made in God's likeness, we look the same all right.
We are made in God's likeness, made in God's image. That means everyone in the universal bears the image of God. The thought of God with 1 zillion x 10000 faces injected fear but at the same time wow.
Thank you Lynn for being my accountablity partner, God must have heard my silent prayer that He knows i cannot survive based on my own ability. I was shaking with fear when i was praying with you.
Should you not fear me?" declares the LORD. "Should you not tremble in my presence? I made the sand a boundary for the sea, an everlasting barrier it cannot cross. The waves may roll, but they cannot prevail; they may roar, but they cannot cross it. Jeremiah 5:22
