Thursday, August 25, 2005 @ 9:52 PM
the weekly morbid germs infected me once again. nothin much actually.. jus bothered abt the hp plan under my brother's name.
i'm sick of not being able to keep track of my bills and being "dependant" on my brother. I dun have a choice, the bill is under his name.
i feel like a parasite, i feel like im running in circles and there's no end to it. i want to reconcile but at times your attitude jus puts me off and i simply wish things stay the way it is now. sadistically speaking, i do like my current equilibruim (without you), but yeah i miss you as a sister.. i want to talk to you without ending up in an arguement, without you getting pissed over my reaction due to your splastic attitude. i no longer have the energy to shed any more tears.
- morbid germs suppressed-
movin on.. b4 i decided to type wads above.. i wonder being filled with the Holy spirit in the way that the river is flooding its bank... how would He lead me to handle this situation.
i'm still in the process of finding out.. if things doesnt result in a Godly manner, it isn't that God is working in my life but i guess my impulsive nature got the better of me.
it's just me by the way to feel down for most things in my life so yea..
i really wanna thank God for the people He put in my life, people like my colleagues minus schizo-h. Work is mundane without sunshine people like them.
looks like i need to reschedule my time on that day again, mum is off and she wants me. I still wanna go botanica garden for a walk with phyliss!
