1o. Tsukihana

Sunday, May 22, 2005 @ 6:26 PM

Jus got home not too long from tea party with mag, mabel and evan.. We spent abt 4 hrs there i think? I absolutely enjoyed the fellowship and those silly photo taking session ( mag's constipated grumpy look ) Poor evan had to listen to our *gossips and i guessed our conversation had caused her mindset to be accelerated to fit ours in that 4 hrs. Like wad mabel mentioned in her blog, we r goin thru our quarter life crisis.

Actually i wonder what's on that 13 yr old teenager mind.. Is she thinking...

Oh my goodness, their topics are so boring, so not my cup of tea. Pls change topic before i fall aslp
Is this a mirror image of what i gonna be like in 7 yrs time. 0h mirror mirror on the wall, is this every girl' call?

Let's fastforward to what i'm feeling right now.. besides pure fatigue i'm seriously troubled!

I thought i made an excellent choice to head for church camp, even though that means taking the late bus ride, rushing back to sg on sunday and yes of course paying the camp fees by myself. Also, i dun have to sacrifice my no paid leave, get my work affected and yes still earn a day off to go for my taiwan trip.

Yes initially i thought i had to pay the full price of $280 even though i simply attending a few days of the camp. A glimmer of hope appeared when i read the email that each of us only had to pay $115. Wow from $280 to $115, it's seriously a huge rip off. The feeling grew stronger each day, the feeling that trixie and huimin would decide not to go for church camp. Call it 6 sense or gut feel, it was confirmed that huimin aint going. Little did i know that that means we have to top up the balance amt to make up for the 2 who aren't going.

Dissappointed, annoyed, pissed.. yes .. not alittle of those but alot! God im not questioning You why this had to happen. Yes it is still a win win situation : i get to go church camp and end of june i still get to go taiwan with van n fio. Besides the "price hike", should i get an MC or no paid leave on mondae pops up. Seriously i dun want to consider MC or no paid leave but it did dawn on me that if i could at least try to get the NPL on mondae. ta dah it solved the problem right? That extra nite would justify the amount i paid, deplete less cells when the need to rush back is eliminated and yes of course enjoy the church camp.

I really hate to choose, I dun wanna choose my taiwan trip over church camp and tts the reason y i opt for that win win situation but now.. it seems like im choosing church camp over taiwan trip. ( if u read my previous entries, this was planned 1 yr ago and since im working now, i have to accumulate leave). I jus wanna balance church life and life with non church frens. Yes to admit, im pretty scare that my entire lifestyle is being consumed with church activities. Though im not that participative but church is not just abt attending service on sunday.

I jus told fiona tt i might choose to opt out for both trips... sigh sigh sigh

*note
Gossips are not malicious