1o. Tsukihana

Saturday, May 21, 2005 @ 8:29 PM

all right i did some adjustment to the time n date. the good thing abt blogging it allows you to blog at the time zone you desire.. anyway this is what happened "today".

A date with evan @ downtown east escape theme park.

No doubt we played only 4 or 5 of the games, i truly enjoyed it. Maybe when i was at that age i was preoccupied with other stuff and at the early stages of my life, my mum did not or well seldom brought me to such places. Reason: hah shes afraid of those rides. Although my memories are not filled with those exciting rides or wad, but i think mum tried her best to give me the best. She rarely said No to wad i want cos she wanted me to be happy.

We played the bumper boat thingy ( spotted other younger churchmates) and we went crazy shooting each other with the water gun! Next was this airplane thingy, we had a chance to be superman. Yea "superman" goin rounds and rounds. Maybe they should play sugarbabes round round. Evan and i felt that we were being placed in a dryer ( scrotching sun and the wind when you go round round). This dryer made us dizzy. We played gold cart, muahahah now i noe the thrill of speeding. It felt so fast and furious, evan was holding on to her safety belt but hmm she claimed that she wasn't scared so i stepped on the gas ( accelerator) and broomzz all the way.

Cycled for an hr.. I can't explained why but i like the feeling to be close to nature. Okie i dun mean you put me in palau or some island and make me go thru survivor there. Perhaps being able to get away from that noisy and fast paced crowd and just quietly listen to the waves and enjoy the breeze, I get to appreciate God's workman ship better. That moment was heavenly :)

It rained at abt 330 and spoiled the day... We left abt five. I'm lookin forward to be there esp wild wild wet with evan!

One of the reasons why i'm always out is bcos i subconsciously implemented the double booking system. Normally i dun note which day im supposed to go out with who and stuff like that. So when another fren asked or i suggested to meet on X day, X day is actually occupied.

Take today for instance..

i thought im supposed to be meetin evan next week
i have a gathering with fio van n karen

the gathering is cancelled cos i promised evan and promises made to younger pals have to be kept. ah i mean its better to keep your promises to younger pals, they are very sensitive.

All right i gonna mention something tt probably catches the attention of my beloved sisters. I decided to talk abt it cos firstly this is my blog and im entitled to shout out my thoughts, secondly ah i really need to get this off my chest so i dun care who is reading it.

I went chinablack yesterdae. each time i frequent such places the resistance to visit it again is greater. I did had fun with my frens but it alwaes leave me with this empty feeling after experiencing the highs.Initially i used to look forward to party with my frens but gradually no.. Not that i loathe it but i no longer want to be part of that lifestyle.

Yes i blogged abt this a year back abt the pitfalls of clubbing, being a prey to those cunning predators etc. Learning to say No is not difficult but having to keep saying it again, is difficult. When your frens with great enthusiasm kept asking you to join them and you feel bad cos you have been turning them down.. the obligation to say okie arises, afterall you tell yourself it's a once in a while thing. Hmm this once in a while thing puts me off.

I met the ex st nicks pepz and sheryl seah from cgs @ black, the once familiar faces and yes shaune's ex gf. Yup i noe they saw me and i heard my name being whispered. One thing abt my generation, ( okie maybe it is still applicable to the present n future gen) we r still very much updated with the news of people whom we met back then in sec sch days. U name it, we know it. Yea scandals..The thing is we are growing up together in this small society, everywhere we go we see the same old faces. From knowing them back since sec 1 thru irc, being updated by frens and yes friendster of cos, we definitely rem them. I guess even when im 40 im still able to spot them from the crowd and rem things tt happened 20 over yrs ago.

My point is i dun wanna be labelled as part of this society, meaning i dun have to go thru that lifestyle to consider as being cool or being in tune with what's hot and what's not. I just wanna be me, the simple me.