Monday, March 07, 2005 @ 10:28 PM
Haven had the time to blog for quite some time.. seriously i'm not able to recall what i was busy with.. Hmm oh yea those sucky survey forms that i have to call up people to help me fill in the details and faking more than 40 surveys hahahaa.. ops
Sat: What happened?
Went ntuc to buy ingredients to make cheesecake. Oh yea there's this super cute champagne grapes, so small n sweet. N yes my cheesecake turned out fine.. hmm it din taste stressful right? Sze sze asked me if i baked whenever im stressed, err well yea.. when u flipped the
stressed word over, you get desserts so hahah yeah im being lame.
It was rather time consuming but relatively easy to make a cheesecake. Wenkang was like askin me to bring it to school but i was like hmm cheese cake hui liu han den not nice. Hey churchmates, better appreciate my cheesecake okie.
Rushed to meet fiona, karen n vanlisa for dinner after baking.. had a great time and we did a little discussion abt our trip.. well i hope we get to go! i really wanan go travelling with them!
Sun:
Went home after kaleo, he gave me the wadever look when i happened to turn round during service. Hmm din talk to him, the usual kueh kuehs that is usually present was missing and he dissappeared after that. Hmm dunno if he's pissed with us? Qimei as usual, never failed to update me on her exciting college life. Yeah shes really a super duper bubbly gal!
Spent several hours doing IB report and yea i noe other grps did some glam glam impressive stuff but wadever, i dun wanna go thru 1 more round of editting IB.
Today:
Had a extremely long heart to heart talk with yen at tea party today. I finally understood why he told me those funny stuff like he is very worried that i might get cheated and hurt in a relationship. I was like hmm okie??? Somehow im so glad that i'm not experiencing any romance.
BGR is jus so time + effort consuming, drains you emotionally and financially. When a relationship dun turned out well, it is like wreaking a home that you build up from scratch. Relationships without commitment is equivalent to building castles on clouds. I was contemplating to say hi to you today but i decided not to. Since i have decided to harden my heart, my actions should justify my decision. Yes, i saw you lookin at me, i saw your waves.
Well if you really meant to be frendly, you would come up personally.
I see how superficial humans are and my heart sank when yen told me his point of view on how MEN evaluate gals. Really loh, they are nothing but horny bastards. I shan't go too deep on that.
Some men go to the extent of knowing if yr long term ex bf smokes, for fear that you might contract cancer and the nanren who sae "i do" have to bear the medical bills cos he signed that marriage contract. Oh mine, is that the love this world has? Surely love matters more than just medical bills, i noe i noe there are many hidden struggles that i might not comprehend but.. im jus dissapointed.
Despite the superficial world i live in, im comforted that I have a God who loves me for what i'm, with or without sickness and yes with sins that He knows b4 im even made. You alone are worthy of my praise.
