Thursday, October 21, 2004 @ 9:38 PM
alrite i confessed! i'm still upset with my som exams, i seriously screwed it up bad time. Despite several promptings and encouragement about turning to God, im still upset...
Read several
daily bread at one go eh well cos i haven been readin dem due to the exams. I really have so much to say for each daily bread i read. Hmm it is like i have so much thoughts that i need to pen dem down before my thoughts overflow!
Happen to chance upon dis : King Of The Apes
I read it on sunday, thinkin that it was the daily bread for sunday only till dis afternoon that i realised it's for 24 oct. Guess it's God's intervention to appeal to me. Friday 15 oct, went ahead with bs knowin tt i've yet to complete my revision. okie revision is never enuff for SIS. Part of me wants to go home and bury myself in my notes, the other wanna go for bs. It is indeed a joy to see my sisters! Another thought appeared in the midst of my conflicting thoughts. " If you go 4 BS, you will be able to impress yr sisters and also act as a source of "encouragement". So much of a source of encouragement that it eats into my conscience. Part of me really wants to be there for Bs jus for Bs but the other is for the attention.
Those who generate the most activity often receive the greatest attention and honor. But a big program and a flashy personality are not necessarily evidence of divine blessing.The real measure of our labor is whether it is in keeping with God's Word and if it reflects His glory rather than our own.
This really knock me hard on the head, am i trying to win others by my outward appearance and reflect my personal glory instead of His? No one can glorify herself and Christ at the same time.
Help us not to cloud God's glory,
Nor with self His light to dim;
May each thought to Christ be captive,
Emptied to be filled with Him. �Anon.
