Tuesday, May 18, 2004 @ 12:10 AM
i had a busy weekend, extremely tiring one. Went to catch 50 1st dates with justin, tze bin, mag, peng hock and jian xun (sp?) I love the romance and the beautiful sceneries. Well i was kinda afraid that my churchmates would feel that the movie was rather crude and too sex-based. I felt awkward.
This had been on my mind for days. I know im sarcastic and critical towards people. Well the level of sarcasm differs depending on the person. If i happen to be bias against that person, yea the sarcasm level hits 100 degrees celius. Yes and i definitely love to bitch to my frens abt being sarcastic to that particular person. The feeling rocks according to the art of bitching.
Actually bitching is like taking drugs, im a victim of my own sarcasm and bitching
The high feeling sets in when u start to bitch, you feel the anger n excitment building up when u r tellin your friends the story.
You get addicted to that the high process, so tt makes u wanna bitch all over again to somebody else.
We all know the ending of a drug addict.
The after feeling when the highness worn off sucks, it leaves the victim in pain, in agony. Ultimately the victim loses his/her friends and his/her life.
All right, it isn't that extreme for me but i see the similiarity. I felt guilty, i dun understand why i became so defensive and sarcastic. I know i have to stop before i end up destroying my life, my friends.
