Friday, April 23, 2004 @ 8:37 PM
Those images of wad happened yesterday and the day b4 kept replaying on my mind like a broken record. Im touched by his simplicity. He held my hand and told me :" now that i've told you i like you, i can tell you i like you again and again, all i want. That was really sweet indeed and the thought of that brings a smile on my face. Well ... to a certain extent im worried. Being a paranoid, insecured and pessimistic freak when it comes to relationship, i cant help feeling scared. Every girl deep down in their heart craves for a romantic love story, jus like all the disney princesses who have such a lovely ending with their princes. i felt pressurised by my thoughts. Certain memories from the past came bk to haunt me. Yea the lust factor came to my mind. Hmm how shld i put it, tis lust im referin here does not mean lusting cos the pple involved are drop dead gorgeous but rather lust that arises when a dating couple sensed the urge to get intimate bcos it is part of the dating game. Intimacy appears alrite to me as it is a form of displaying affection for the person you like/love but when it becomes uncontrollable, it is scary. It seems to be telling yr significant other " I LUST YOU instead of I LOVE YOU" The meaning of Love becomes confused with Lust. In the dating game, the process moves up and rarely goes down. 1st holding of hands, next cuddle or hug?, followed by dry kiss, frenching?, heavily involved with petting and yeah next SEX is there waving and smiling at you!
