Wednesday, October 22, 2003 @ 3:03 AM
hmm seems like i've not been here for a long long time. Being a perfectionist, i cant stand the terrible state my blog is in and tt kinda stop me from blogging. -evil laughter- Im definitely addicted to frienster these days and heard they are gonna charge soon. - i knew it- Its quite cool and i found quite alot of my long lost frens. Exams gonna take place soon and i cant seem 2 finish studying. Lotsa stuff on my mind which really makes me think wad i should do to my life. Mum told me abt her plan to start this catering breakfast biz after her retrenchment. The 1st thing that came to my mind was that the biz gonna flop. I felt bad, it seems like im destroyin her wonderful dreams of havin her own biz and another route for her to start life afresh. Perhaps being a typical biz student, i noe that it is reallie hard 2 start a biz especially much torture after ecd project. This leads me to think abt whether i should continue working part-time. Obviously working part-time increases your purchasing power and makes u feel financially secured. On the other hand, it gonna affect my studies n my spiritual walk which is in a pretty bad state right now. i admit that im caught up in this materialistic - look gd feel gd- situation. I love branded and thats for sure. No doubt i paid for most of my clothes etc, there is a tiny part of me remindin me how spendthrift i am. Most of the time i silenced that voice. I felt lost each time these voices pop up. I never felt so lost b4 in my entire 18 years and i felt that im going to breakdown any moment. Things arent totally that great presently and as usual there would be suckers appearing to make my life in a greater pathetic state. Theres 2 more suckers who are added to my list recently and who knows 1 of them might be reading my blog. I have so much to say but nah.. maybe i should jus create an imaginary friend.
